Faith Shaken by Emma DeMarais (Challenge #11 - Undercover)

[emmademarais.livejournal.com]

Title: Faith Shaken
Pairing/Characters: Colby
Rating/Category: PG
Spoilers: Judgment Call, The Janus List
Summary: Colby questions his obedience as the walls close in on him
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ


The cell was dank, concrete cold, and the chill sank into Colby's flesh through the coarse prison issue garb he'd seen on hundreds of criminals but never imagined he'd wind up in himself.

He shivered, more out of apprehension and uncertainty than cold, and fought down yet another wave of claustrophobia. He'd been in tinier foxholes, but at least those he could leave - well if he wanted to get perforated with bullet holes he could, but somehow just having the option made all the difference.

Options.

He'd never considered them before. He was raised to follow orders and he'd followed them: his father's, his drill sergeant's, his C.O.'s, his government's.

He'd been ordered to spy, to go undercover, deep undercover.

He'd put his faith in those who he served in serving his country.

For the first time in his life, he was starting to doubt the wisdom of obedience.

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Comments

[admiralandrea.livejournal.com]

I don't think I've seen a story of yours without a "Confession" post before. Seems verra, verra strange!

I like this, though. I think my - dislike is too strong a word - non-sympathy for Colby is well known. But every soldier comes to question obedience eventually. And I think that's generally a good thing. It's what keeps us strong, challenging those in power.

[emmademarais.livejournal.com]

Thanks...

They are few and far between for I am abundantly verbose and exceedingly difficult to shut up. ;-)

Questioning obedience/authority is healthy. Chaos is not. It's finding the ideal space between that's key.

[fredbassett]

I haven't seen the Janus List yet (am nearly at the end of S2, though!) but I think I've worked out the scenario from various fics.

I do like Colby as a character, and like the fact that he's questioning orders.

And I missed the Confession post as well :) You are not verbose!!

[emmademarais.livejournal.com]

Seriously! Look up Verbose in the OED and you'll see a pic of me. /grins/ Many of my Confession posts are longer than the *fic* I'm writing about.

I'm glad you're almost to the end of S2. Charlie's hair is *much* improved in S3. ;-) S3 also has Dark!Don and bonus Edgerton so it's cool. JL is a great finale even if it was a cliffhanger for the first time.

I've gotten dissed for the Confession posts in the past, but it's nice to know at least one or two people read them and notice if they go missing. Thanks for that...

[fredbassett]

Oooh, Dark!Don and Bonus!Edgerton I can't wait. Think I've seen some of that already when Don let Edgerton interrogate someone. Am I a Bad Person for finding that very, very scrummy? :)

No-one should diss you for the Confessions, reading isn't compulsory! But I like them, it's always interesting to see what's in an author's mind when they're writing. I always read them.

[emmademarais.livejournal.com]

Hehehe I know that feeling. I've had to delete and repost comments because I messed up on that, only it's harder to figure out 'other me' since I don't publicize my other name or use it for any commenting at all.

Colby's had a rough go of things. He didn't ask for this assignment - he just fell into it when Dwayne approached him and he was put in a unique position to ferret out the mole. (And how funny is it that those are both animals? LOL!) Don's right in that he can probably get his pick of cherry assignments after almost getting himself *killed* just to follow Dwayne until he led him to the traitor. But he won't go. I'm not sure what reason he'll give for staying, but Dylan's contracted for S4 so Colby's not going anywhere. Hee!

(But wouldn't it be insane if they made him Don's *boss* for his promotion? ROFL!)

[mustangcandi.livejournal.com]

*sighs* I love him. That's all there is to it.

Thanks for sharing this.

[emmademarais.livejournal.com]

That Colby... He's a keeper. ;-)

Thanks for reading!

[nicelyobsessed.livejournal.com]

Poor Colby, you need to be very strong for this kind of life.
Numb3rs J-3 squee

[emmademarais.livejournal.com]

Yes, indeed.

And next up? A Nick and Cheryl penned episode! I can't wait to see what they do with the David and Colby dynamic.