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numb3rsflashficTitle: Between Trust and Doubt
Pairing/Characters: David
Rating/Category: PG
Spoilers: Judgment Call, The Janus List, Trust Metric
Summary: David is caught between conflicting emotions
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ
For a long time after Megan went in to see Colby in his hospital bed David stood outside - unable to join her and unable to go home, his physical state mirroring his mental one. Trapped between trust and doubt, he wasn't able to forgive and move on nor was he able to retreat into the anger of Colby's betrayal, the anger that had sustained him for weeks when brief moments alone brought the danger of collapse from the strain.
He'd struggled to come to terms with the betrayal. He'd needed time and over the weeks he'd finally settled into an understanding of sorts, one where he accepted what his former partner had done without comprehending in any way how the man he knew, the man he'd entrusted with his life, could have done such a thing.
Yet once he'd convinced himself of Colby's complicity, it wasn't such an easy thing to undo.
His car eventually found its way to the FBI on its own, somehow knowing the idea of going home to his too silent, too empty apartment would be too unbearable.
The room was still set up as Don had left it earlier, with footage of Colby's confession on the monitors.
David loaded a copy of the tape they'd seized on the boat of Lancer's interrogation and torture of Colby and hesitated, his finger hovering over the Play button.
It would be hard to watch. It should be hard to watch. But if he watched it - and watched it as many times as he'd viewed the confession footage - he might just come to believe it.
He needed to believe.
He couldn’t live with the doubt.
He took a deep breath and pressed Play.
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Pairing/Characters: David
Rating/Category: PG
Spoilers: Judgment Call, The Janus List, Trust Metric
Summary: David is caught between conflicting emotions
Notes/Warnings: Read the disclaimer on my LJ
For a long time after Megan went in to see Colby in his hospital bed David stood outside - unable to join her and unable to go home, his physical state mirroring his mental one. Trapped between trust and doubt, he wasn't able to forgive and move on nor was he able to retreat into the anger of Colby's betrayal, the anger that had sustained him for weeks when brief moments alone brought the danger of collapse from the strain.
He'd struggled to come to terms with the betrayal. He'd needed time and over the weeks he'd finally settled into an understanding of sorts, one where he accepted what his former partner had done without comprehending in any way how the man he knew, the man he'd entrusted with his life, could have done such a thing.
Yet once he'd convinced himself of Colby's complicity, it wasn't such an easy thing to undo.
His car eventually found its way to the FBI on its own, somehow knowing the idea of going home to his too silent, too empty apartment would be too unbearable.
The room was still set up as Don had left it earlier, with footage of Colby's confession on the monitors.
David loaded a copy of the tape they'd seized on the boat of Lancer's interrogation and torture of Colby and hesitated, his finger hovering over the Play button.
It would be hard to watch. It should be hard to watch. But if he watched it - and watched it as many times as he'd viewed the confession footage - he might just come to believe it.
He needed to believe.
He couldn’t live with the doubt.
He took a deep breath and pressed Play.
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Date: 2007-09-29 01:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-10-07 08:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-09-29 07:43 pm (UTC)Yes. Yes, he needs to see it. The tape. Wow, I don't have words. I'm in such awe of the episode, especially the end, I just need more!! We need to write fanfiction! Keep it up!
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Date: 2007-10-07 08:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-09-29 09:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-10-07 08:20 am (UTC)What episode are you up to now? I'm sure you must be at least partway through Season 2.
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Date: 2007-10-07 09:38 am (UTC)I'm now on s3 thanks to munchkin and have watched the first 2. *dies* Edgerton!!!
I got serious Don/Charlie/Larry/Colby?everyone withdrawal and the munchkin save me! *grins*
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Date: 2007-10-07 09:43 am (UTC)Edgerton is great in Spree/Two Daughters. And there's more of him past that! He's on more and more each season!
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Date: 2007-09-30 03:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-10-07 08:22 am (UTC)You're so biased, my dear. You have such faith that I'm equal to TPTB and such. It's adorable. /smooches/
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Date: 2007-09-30 08:01 am (UTC)This would have made an amazing book-end to how the episode began. Don opening with multiple replays of the confession, then David ending with multiple replays of the graphic proof of Colby's innocence...
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Date: 2007-10-03 04:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-10-07 08:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-10-07 08:25 am (UTC)I was confused by Don's watching the footage. It was really excessive and kind of a heavy handed way to recap the past season final plot, but it made for a lovely juxtaposition to the final tape and thus fic! LOL
Oh, and I think this is yours. /hands heart back with a sheepish grin/ Hehehe
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Date: 2007-09-30 12:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-10-07 08:29 am (UTC)